Post by cyansky on Jun 7, 2009 22:16:44 GMT -5
Dear Journal,
When paths cross, people meet each other. When they tangle, their relationships become complicated. Such is the difficulty behind human politics, such is the reason why I resent humanity for drawing me into such games, yet it's also why I find them to be such a curiosity.
Life is a balance of death and rebirth, a delicate one that must be respected if the universe is to flourish. When too many things die, it's slower, if not more difficult for a world to get back in balance. I believe that that is what the Black Goat has done -bringing disaster to the city to upset the balance, to make it stay that way for as long as possible, while we dance on stage like actors in a grand performance.
The events in the Church have proved that to me. They've shown me how unpleasant some of the inhabitants in this city are, and how dangerous politics can be (had Myzrael survived, he have been angry at me 'losing' the bracelet). They've opened up my eyes, redefined how I should approach this, and hopefully, the knowledge I gained from this will serve me well in the future. I'm not the muddled little Syl that first awakened. I'll be more careful.
Or, at least I'll try to be.
I will do my best to avoid having my emotions control me in the future. I will survive here, and perhaps I will find the answers I seek. Kiel has given me two more messsages, and I will take them to heart, especially. 'You must never look down upon others, nor must you fear what's above.' I'll keep that in mind. I don't look down upon those that are weaker, but if that person happens to be stronger, I won't show fear... unless I have a good reason to.
Kiel... I won't forget you, nor will I forget your messages. I know that I might be hallucinating, but I do have a slim glimmer of hope that you're really here with me. And about the cloaked figure, it was quite an interesting one. I really have a lot to thank it for, and I certainly have a reason to hope that I will have a chance to converse with it yet again.
Concerning Bremmen, I'll have to keep an eye on him. He apparently isn't fond of me, so I might as well avoid gettting him angry. He is quite formidable in a fight it seems. What makes it worse is that I can't scratch diamond without... never mind that... I have to figure how the hell he flies with DIAMOND wings. Small quantities of diamonds aren't very heavy, but to conjure such a large quantity of it and using it to fly stretches my analytical limits. How perplexing. Is that organic diamond or is the almighty useful 'it's MAGIC' explanation that's used as a jest all the time?
Concerning Myzrael, I must say that that one must either have a massive amount of courage or a massive amount of stupidity to face a demon that strong on his own. Perhaps he was trying to defend miss Veronica, perhaps he was trying to make himself look good in front of Bremmen and miss Veronica or perhaps he was still caught up in his heavenly perception that all demons must be exterminated. Perhaps it's one of them; perhaps it's a bit of all three....
Well, now that he is dead, I don't think we'll ever know. I suppose he deserves a farewell for trying so hard on his own, and for protecting miss Veronica in my absence.
Hence, I suppose I'll repeat what the cloaked figure said:
Ashen'va Elra'ais, Myzrael.
Your powers served us well and your sacrifice will not be forgotten. I do not believe in pointless deaths - I believe that if a life is taken, it must be taken with a purpose or good reason, even if such a purpose is selfish in nature. (Of course, there is a line tha must be drawn between 'selfish' and 'senseless' reasons for killing - I have to work on drawing that. Then there's the issue concerning Chains. I figure that he has reasons why he kills so much.)
The Black Goat... He was responsible for this. While I do not desire vengeance, my desire for knowledge remains unchanged.
I'll take a step forward, find that cloaked figure (or let it find me) and get some answers.
May good fortune be with me,
Sylredrae
PS: I need to spend less time with the group, lest they find more opportunities to dislike me or else see my pacifism as cowardice.
When paths cross, people meet each other. When they tangle, their relationships become complicated. Such is the difficulty behind human politics, such is the reason why I resent humanity for drawing me into such games, yet it's also why I find them to be such a curiosity.
Life is a balance of death and rebirth, a delicate one that must be respected if the universe is to flourish. When too many things die, it's slower, if not more difficult for a world to get back in balance. I believe that that is what the Black Goat has done -bringing disaster to the city to upset the balance, to make it stay that way for as long as possible, while we dance on stage like actors in a grand performance.
The events in the Church have proved that to me. They've shown me how unpleasant some of the inhabitants in this city are, and how dangerous politics can be (had Myzrael survived, he have been angry at me 'losing' the bracelet). They've opened up my eyes, redefined how I should approach this, and hopefully, the knowledge I gained from this will serve me well in the future. I'm not the muddled little Syl that first awakened. I'll be more careful.
Or, at least I'll try to be.
I will do my best to avoid having my emotions control me in the future. I will survive here, and perhaps I will find the answers I seek. Kiel has given me two more messsages, and I will take them to heart, especially. 'You must never look down upon others, nor must you fear what's above.' I'll keep that in mind. I don't look down upon those that are weaker, but if that person happens to be stronger, I won't show fear... unless I have a good reason to.
Kiel... I won't forget you, nor will I forget your messages. I know that I might be hallucinating, but I do have a slim glimmer of hope that you're really here with me. And about the cloaked figure, it was quite an interesting one. I really have a lot to thank it for, and I certainly have a reason to hope that I will have a chance to converse with it yet again.
Concerning Bremmen, I'll have to keep an eye on him. He apparently isn't fond of me, so I might as well avoid gettting him angry. He is quite formidable in a fight it seems. What makes it worse is that I can't scratch diamond without... never mind that... I have to figure how the hell he flies with DIAMOND wings. Small quantities of diamonds aren't very heavy, but to conjure such a large quantity of it and using it to fly stretches my analytical limits. How perplexing. Is that organic diamond or is the almighty useful 'it's MAGIC' explanation that's used as a jest all the time?
Concerning Myzrael, I must say that that one must either have a massive amount of courage or a massive amount of stupidity to face a demon that strong on his own. Perhaps he was trying to defend miss Veronica, perhaps he was trying to make himself look good in front of Bremmen and miss Veronica or perhaps he was still caught up in his heavenly perception that all demons must be exterminated. Perhaps it's one of them; perhaps it's a bit of all three....
Well, now that he is dead, I don't think we'll ever know. I suppose he deserves a farewell for trying so hard on his own, and for protecting miss Veronica in my absence.
Hence, I suppose I'll repeat what the cloaked figure said:
Ashen'va Elra'ais, Myzrael.
Your powers served us well and your sacrifice will not be forgotten. I do not believe in pointless deaths - I believe that if a life is taken, it must be taken with a purpose or good reason, even if such a purpose is selfish in nature. (Of course, there is a line tha must be drawn between 'selfish' and 'senseless' reasons for killing - I have to work on drawing that. Then there's the issue concerning Chains. I figure that he has reasons why he kills so much.)
The Black Goat... He was responsible for this. While I do not desire vengeance, my desire for knowledge remains unchanged.
I'll take a step forward, find that cloaked figure (or let it find me) and get some answers.
May good fortune be with me,
Sylredrae
PS: I need to spend less time with the group, lest they find more opportunities to dislike me or else see my pacifism as cowardice.